Anw counting down - 4 days to Batam~~ 2d1n only cheyyyy. Hahaha! But it also means seeing B after 11 whole days ^^
Monday 4 June 2012
12.48am
It is now 12.48am and my bro is still on the lappie playing his zombie-killing game. When I was sec 3, I'd prolly have been nagged/shouted to death. The pains of a first-born i'll hafta accept. I still rmb creeping up at wee hours of the night just to view this stupid online tagboard thingie on some website cos I rly believed it was Edison Chen replying me omgzzz what a joke!
Anw counting down - 4 days to Batam~~ 2d1n only cheyyyy. Hahaha! But it also means seeing B after 11 whole days ^^
Anw counting down - 4 days to Batam~~ 2d1n only cheyyyy. Hahaha! But it also means seeing B after 11 whole days ^^
Sunday 3 June 2012
Too free
Hihiiiii~ composing a blog post now to commerate my Too Free Days, before hell starts agn, be it entering the workforce or retaking pprs (CHOY! I will pass I will pass think positive)
At first it felt super awesome! Stayin home and just slacking woohoooo! Then slowly but surely guilt started trickling in......... So to make up for it I've been tryna help with some ironing, well, very minimal, but tryna keep it up! I actually enjoy ironing! (wish my mom's be happy and satisfied one day)
And omgosh the PRESSURE! It's crazy!!! I'm the sort to feel pressured even if no one is directly putting any pressure on me, and this thought of not being abt to get a well-paid job that enables me to support my family well and save up for my dream wedding AND that is in a friendly non-bitchy happy easy-going environment with good job advancement opportunities JUST.FREAKS.ME.OUT. I rly don't know how ahli does it. And everytime I read some knowledgable person's blog with super profound and complex thoughts structured with colourful cheem words, I die a little inside. So many other much more capable people out there in terms of IQ and interpersonal skills, etc. how am I to beat? Can't even imagine myself landing a job, a GOOD job. I don't wna be the worst lowest position in the office saigang warrior, I wna be the best that I can be.
Sigh sigh. Yes, that's how scary it is to be unemployed, can't even slack to my heart's content, 2 weeks in and I'm alr feeling all flustered I half wish I alr had a job and am earning a decent keep. No worries, just mundane routine office work daily, I kinda wldn't mind that now, in exchange for worry-free sleep!
All those haunting thoughts aside, I'm actually rly quite excited and enthusiastic abt starting work! Have my own desk which I can decorate, own computer, and opportunities to put what I have learnt to good use and to prove my worth! I hope to (I wna) be a useful good employee! Whoopedoo!
Resume writing and pro pic taking next week, let's go!
At first it felt super awesome! Stayin home and just slacking woohoooo! Then slowly but surely guilt started trickling in......... So to make up for it I've been tryna help with some ironing, well, very minimal, but tryna keep it up! I actually enjoy ironing! (wish my mom's be happy and satisfied one day)
And omgosh the PRESSURE! It's crazy!!! I'm the sort to feel pressured even if no one is directly putting any pressure on me, and this thought of not being abt to get a well-paid job that enables me to support my family well and save up for my dream wedding AND that is in a friendly non-bitchy happy easy-going environment with good job advancement opportunities JUST.FREAKS.ME.OUT. I rly don't know how ahli does it. And everytime I read some knowledgable person's blog with super profound and complex thoughts structured with colourful cheem words, I die a little inside. So many other much more capable people out there in terms of IQ and interpersonal skills, etc. how am I to beat? Can't even imagine myself landing a job, a GOOD job. I don't wna be the worst lowest position in the office saigang warrior, I wna be the best that I can be.
Sigh sigh. Yes, that's how scary it is to be unemployed, can't even slack to my heart's content, 2 weeks in and I'm alr feeling all flustered I half wish I alr had a job and am earning a decent keep. No worries, just mundane routine office work daily, I kinda wldn't mind that now, in exchange for worry-free sleep!
All those haunting thoughts aside, I'm actually rly quite excited and enthusiastic abt starting work! Have my own desk which I can decorate, own computer, and opportunities to put what I have learnt to good use and to prove my worth! I hope to (I wna) be a useful good employee! Whoopedoo!
Resume writing and pro pic taking next week, let's go!
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